Paulina Porizkova speaks for the first time about the nightmare she experienced when Ric Ocasek was found dead. Almost two years after the death of her husband, Porizkova finally speaks of the deep pain she experienced that day.
On September 15, 2019, the model discovered the lifeless body of The Cars frontman Ric Ocasek at his home in Manhattan. And it is now when she talks about the difficult moment she lived, which compares it to a “nightmare”. The strong revelations were made in his video series Yahoo! Life.
She recounts the moment when she entered her room to bring him coffee. “I thought he was sleeping later than usual. I walked in and it looked like I was sleeping, until I put down the coffee cup and I could see from his face that he was not sleeping, although he looked very calm, ”says the supermodel.
And there was a certain hunch when I entered the room. I felt some kind of knowledge of what I was about to find. “
Ric Ocasek passed away from high blood pressure and heart disease at the age of 75. He was recovering from undisclosed surgery at the time of his death.
Paulina Porizkova later had to tell her two children that their father had died
Not satisfied with what I had just seen, The model now had to notify her two sons: Jonathan, 27, and Oliver, 22. “In my mind, I calmly left the room and went downstairs and told the children what had happened. But instead I started crying and my legs gave out and I couldn’t walk, so I had to crawl down the stairs on all fours, ”Paulina recalled.
The model compared the situation to a “nightmare from which she could not escape.” “You are so torn. You are bouncing between what you just saw, how your world has come to a complete stop, and then how you are reacting. All of this happens in your brain at the same time. It’s so much information that you just get blocked“, He said.
Porizkova revealed in her video how she has been deeply grieving for the past year and eight months, and has no qualms about continuing to say so publicly. “I feel like I’m in a much stronger position than I’ve been in a long time,” he explains.
“I feel like I’m getting my voice back and who I am,” he said.
“My best hope for the future is to continue discovering who I am on my own. I have been part of a couple for so long that finding out who I am outside of the couple is really difficult and really traumatic. I don’t like it, but it’s like taking cod liver oil, it’s good for me. “
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