FKA Twigs is telling its heartbreaking story. In an interview with Gayle King that aired on Thursday’s episode of CBS this morning, the 33-year-old singer gets emotional as she talks about the alleged abuse she suffered from her ex-boyfriend, Shia LaBeouf.
FKA and LaBeouf dated for about a year after meeting when she was cast in their 2019 film. Honey boy. In December, she filed a lawsuit against him, accusing him of “relentless abuse,” including sexual assault, battery, and inflicting emotional distress. LaBeouf responded to FKA’s claims in emails to The New York Times, writing in part that “many of these accusations are not true.”
Their relationship, FKA said, began with actions she once found romantic, but now she believes were proof of LaBeouf.
“At first he … would jump over the fence where I was staying and leave flowers outside my door and poems and books. I thought it was very romantic, but that quickly changed,” she said. “Now I understand that this is testing your limits. Instead of me thinking, ‘Oh, it’s nice to have flowers outside my door.’ Now I think, ‘It’s not appropriate to jump over the fence where I’m living. break a boundary. ‘”
From there, FKA claimed that LaBeouf’s behavior “gradually became more and more abusive,” adding that he set requirements for the amount of “physical affection” she showed him each day.
“At first it was tapping, so I had to tap him and say, ‘Are you okay? Love you’. Little things like that, “he said.” … I think it was about 20 caresses and kisses a day. Then I would start to panic and you would lose count and the days would get mixed up and I would think, ‘It’s eight o’clock and I have, like, three hours to do this.
FKA claimed LaBeouf would criticize her by “downplaying … and denying” her experiences, even when the alleged abuse turned physical.
“There were certain cases where he would push me and then say, ‘You fell.’ I was getting very confused and thinking, ‘Maybe I did,’ “he recalled.
At the same time as the alleged gas bombing, FKA claimed that LaBeouf also “would love to bomb” it.
“[He was] put me on a pedestal, tell me I was amazing, exaggerate displays of affection, only to throw myself off the pedestal and tell me I was worthless, criticize me, berate me, separate, “he said. King.” Some of the worst moments in that relationship were when I think he felt like he was losing control over me and I was trying to get out. “
The final straw for FKA came when she and LaBeouf took a trip to a spa, which “just turned out to be one of the worst long weekends I’ve ever had in my life.”
“It turned out that he sped down the highway and he told me that if I let him or if I told him that he did not love him and that he was going to leave him, he would crash the car against the side of a wall,” he said. . “I thought, ‘Wow, he needs so much control over me that he would rather kill us both.’
The experience FKA describes came to a head when LaBeouf entered a gas station and the singer tried to get her suitcases out of the car while three male witnesses looked on and “did nothing.”
“I remember thinking, ‘This is it, I’m done, I can’t do this anymore,'” he said. “He picks me up and throws me against the car and starts strangling me. That’s when I realized I needed help getting out of the relationship.”
The FKA said the inaction of the male witnesses made it feel “so lonely”, prompting it to come forward “because victims and survivors shouldn’t have to feel alone.”
After that weekend, FKA, while bursting into tears, told King that she was “a little surprised” to see that one side of her body was “completely black.”
“I’m a dancer and I really love my body and take very good care of it. I was looking at my body and I thought, ‘Where did everything go wrong?'” She recalled.
Despite its experiences, FKA said it had not initially planned to file a lawsuit against LaBeouf. Instead, he first asked her to help him and donate money to an organization like the helpline that had provided a “real turnaround time for everything.”
FKA claimed that LaBeouf did not do what she requested, prompting her to file the lawsuit. After she did, LaBeouf emailed a statement to The New York Times.
“I am not in a position to tell anyone how my behavior made them feel. I have no excuses for my alcoholism or aggression, only rationalizations,” he wrote in part. “I have been abusive to myself and everyone around me for years. I have a history of hurting the people closest to me. I am ashamed of that history and I feel sorry for those I have hurt. There is nothing else that I really can. tell. “
“I have not been cured of my PTSD and alcoholism,” he continued, noting that he was in therapy and was a sober member of a 12-step program. “But I am committed to doing what I have to do to recover, and I will forever mourn people for hurting me along the way.”
LaBeouf’s statement, FKA said, reminded him of “some of the gas bombardments that I experienced when I was with him,” where he would take “some but not all of the blame.”
Now that she has told her story, FKA said she “feels brave.”
“I just couldn’t take it anymore. I felt like I was breaking down,” he said. “Whereas now I feel that I have returned his dysfunction and it is his.”
If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic violence, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233, or visit thehotline.org. All calls are free and confidential.