Elliot Page talks about how his life has changed since coming out as a transgender man in December, and how this will affect his future acting roles.
In a new interview for Vanity fairPage, 34, speaks with a trans journalist, Thomas Page McBee. The Juno Star said that, for the first time in her life, she is able to “just exist” and let go of constant anxiety.
“The most significant difference is that I can really just exist,” he says. “I imagine you will understand where I come from, just exist by myself, how to be able to sit with myself. Not having a constant distraction, all these things that are not conscious or that are not even too obvious.. For the first time in, not even I know how long [I am] really just being able to sit alone, be alone, be productive and be creative. “
“It’s an oversimplification to say it this way, but I feel comfortable,” he continues. “I feel a significant difference in my ability to just exist, and not just day by day, but moment by moment. This is the first time that I feel really present with people, that I can be really relaxed and I don’t have an anxiety that always strip “.
Page shared that even when he was young, he “absolutely, 100 percent” knew he was a boy.
“I knew it was a boy when I was little,” he says. “I was writing fake love letters and signing ‘Jason’. Every little aspect of my life, that’s who I was, who I am, and who I knew I was. I just couldn’t understand when they were saying, ‘No you’re not. No, you can be that when you’re older. You feel it. Now I’m finally getting back to feeling like I am, and it’s so beautiful and extraordinary, and somehow there’s pain. “
Page said that, creatively, he has been able to do more than ever these days, like writing his first script and making music with a friend. As for acting, he acknowledges that he is still not very sure of the future.
“I’m so much more fucking comfortable and present, so it’s hard to imagine that that doesn’t affect work, because actually being present is ultimately what you’re looking for; ultimately, you’re trying to break open and be present and connect with the truth of a moment, “he explains.” So I’m imagining that the more I embody who I am and exist in the body in which I want to exist, there will be a difference. “
The actor has opened up about his own experience to help combat current anti-trans legislation, which includes bills that would limit health care and other rights for trans people. He recently sat down with Oprah Winfrey for her Apple TV + series, The Oprah conversation, and said he did it to speak out against anti-trans legislation. The episode premieres on Friday.
“It was something I needed to sit with for a moment, because the reaction right now is so intense,” she said of the decision to sit down with Winfrey. “But the rhetoric coming from anti-trans activists and anti-LGBTQ activists – it’s devastating. These bills will be responsible for the deaths of children. It’s that simple. So [talking to Oprah] I felt the opportunity to use a powerful platform to speak from my heart about part of my experience and the resources that I have been able to access, be it therapy or surgery, that have allowed me to be alive, to live my life. “
“I don’t want it to sound like ‘Look at me,'” he added. “It’s not that at all. Actually, I was very nervous.”